Feeling Goth

Magnetic Poem #1

10 Random Things About Me

Maybe you want to know, maybe you don't... ~d(tilde) did it, and her friend Valyna, too.
1. What is your favorite word?
I love lots of words, so just one favorite? A real challenge. Resistentialism... Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious... Apolaustic... Callipygian... Chiaroscuro... Evancalous... Kalopsia... Retroussé... Widdershins...

Erin, the embodiment of Callipygian

2. What is your least favorite word?
I hate "reify" and "antidisestablishmentarianism". (Both of which were endlessly used/misused in my college art history classes.)
3. What turns you on?
sex in a warm rainstorm... full figured women... tall men... light colored eyes... men with 2 day stubble... watching people masturbate to orgasm... the way being close enough to certain people makes me weak at the knees...crossdressers... outdoorsy sweat... silk & satin... light bondage... a man's voice like a deep rumbling purr... hearing Carla say "mmmmm"... watching people dance... snug & soft jeans (I am a child of the eighties)... Fatty D... Angelina Jolie's lips and intensity (tho she needs to gain some weight)...

April, the incomparable Fatty D

4. What turns you off?
silicone boobs, especially on rail thin women... chinlessness... pinching... obnoxious body odor... squeaky voiced men... Paris Hilton... visible ribs and/or vertebrae on unmuscular people... my-way-is-the-only-way people... religious zealots
5. What is your favorite curse word?
Nope. I refuse to give any up. Shit-Fuck-Damn are probably the most frequently utilized, though.
6. What sound or noise do you love?
I love listening to cats purr... listening to someone's heart beat with my head on their chest...
7. What sound or noise do you hate?
Any repetitive monotonous sound, especially if high-pitched
8. What profession other than your own would you like to attempt?
Hmmm... Pleasure Mistress? Orgasm Inducer? I mean I am a painter, writer, and photographer, and I wish I made my living by doing so, but you know, Goddess has a nice ring...
9. What profession would you not like to do?
Security. (Yes, I know.) Truck Driver? Dog Catcher?
10. If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?
I'm so sorry. That wasn't at all what I intended. OR The-Bleah-of-Surprise, which would mean Caleb was successful in campaigning for godhood.

Birthday Memorial #2

Billy and I were talking today, and it would have been Trey's birthday. Know what? We still miss you like crazy, damn it.




"You think that the despair will stop you cold, but it doesn't: it wraps itself up in a dark corner somewhere inside and forces the rest of your system to function, to take care of practical matters, which may not be important but which keep you going, which guarantee that you are still, somehow, alive." –Peter Høeg, Smilla’s Sense of Snow




"Poet Mark Doty says: 'Being in grief, it turns out, is not unlike being in love. In both states, the imagination is entirely occupied with one person... Everything that touches us seems to relate back to that center; there is no other emotional life, no place outside the universe of feeling centered on that pivotal figure.'" - quoted by Mary D. Esselman & Elizabeth Ash Velez in _The Hell With Love_ (Poems to Mend a Broken Heart)